Last night I couldn't sleep, this is a normal occurrence for me but usually I just put on a harry potter podcast (mugglecast.com) or listen to YA author John Green talk about something while playing a FIFA video game (youtube.com/hankgames), but on this night I didn't feel like doing even that. I had this hankering to watch The Secret this movie based on the best selling book of the same name. I had been skeptical of this book since my days working at Borders. I merely sold the book, never promoted it or bothered to learn more about it than it was the inspiration for tons of people to go out and make vision boards. So the fact that I felt an urge to watch it was something I fought for a few minutes before finally succumbing to that urge, after all the worst it could do is put me to bed and that wouldn't be a bad thing. I fired up my Netflix and found it with ease ( I had seen it lurking in my suggestions before). From the start I only wanted to give it partial attention, bringing with me my notebook to figure out bills and list the various tasks I needed to accomplish the next day.
Within the first five minutes I was using that notebook to take note of everything I was learning from this program. I was aware that your mind is a powerful thing and I have heard that if you can visualize it you can have it since a class I took in 7th grade to try to lose weight (a better me in 2003). But with guidelines it was something different, with all the tips I felt like this could work, this could be it! This is explains why so far this year I have been getting nothing but death and debt so I keep dwelling on it and what do I keep getting more of? Death and debt.
I finally feel as if it is in my control, in my power to change my world, to change what has been going on. I've been in such a funk, in such a depression since Borders closed, that place was my world. I was an enthusiastic employee of that place and long before that I had been a Borders enthusiast. I spent much of my time in Borders browsing and reading and drinking Seattle's Best coffee, having the time of my life. There will never be another place like it. I feel much like a widow, the thing I loved and devoted so much of my time to no longer exists, all I have are my memories.
But this brings me to my next point after The Power was over, instantly after it ended I got this great idea! I've thought of opening up my own bookstore before but this idea was everything I have ever wanted all rolled into one! A bookstore that utilizes all of the resources I have with my friends and family, all of our talents rolled into one place in a way that could only be well received in a downtown phoenix that's always looking to expand its unique shops. My idea is for a bookstore that has live music from local bands of all genres, art Wednesdays, community events, a coffee shop that sells a coffee that is only available online right now, sells homemade baked goods, features the magazine collection that Borders once provided minus the magazines you can acquire anywhere, books that hopefully will have the eBook with them, as well as a nice selection of rare books (something I've made a habit of collecting), merchandise created by me of things that are related to classic and understated books, as well as hosts a book club of only new books that I'm sure will get a huge following to keep people ahead of the curb. A Borders feel bookstore with a twist. I've already got a name, access to the coffee, baked goods, bands and artists who would be eager to play and display their work, and an idea of how the book world works from my time at Borders. This is the first time I ever felt like any of my ideas were doable, this is doable. I can see a place for this already, there is an empty space right by ASU downtown and right where the vegan shops and indie clothes are, where once a month there is an art walk, where the type of clientele I'm sure to attract is already hanging out. Now what I need is the first bit of funding, and a few other things. But that is where The Secret comes into play, I'm sure I can do this, I'm sure this will happen. And now I'm going to plan it as if it's already funded, and I am sure the universe will align to make my dream a reality.
(currently listening to VCR by The XX)
Veronica Pickles Day 1 of using The Power
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