"How fickle my heart and woozy my eyes."

These last few days have been all about trying to stay positive, trying to feel happiness to the core of me. I've surrounded myself with music that makes me feel good, and I've taken more time to write and to read. But I have slipped. Trying to be optimistic about every situation is difficult. I did see this coming, but I didn't think I would find it so hard to fight.
The key to allowing the secret to work for you is to change the way you think, feel and want. I can't seem to find the time to feel, my life is so hectic. I'm so used to being like a robot, my life is not routine but I am always on autopilot, doing just the things that I have to do running on fumes. My life as I'm sure many others lives are is about an 18 hour day that consists of about 200 miles of driving, countless tasks that can't wait and people I can't stand. But that is how I viewed it before, now I'm trying to live in the present, but that just makes me more exhausted to feel and to be in the moment, to experience each day as its happening instead of thinking about all the tasks of tomorrow or just being stuck in my mind the whole day through wondering how I managed to drive to my destination when I barely remember leaving. But Optimism Optimism right? that is what I am struggling with, and this is what I will conquer! I will use the secret so that the universe can provide for me all the things I need and want out of life, I am strong enough and worthy of the life I WANT to live, not just the life I feel is being given to me.

(currently listening to Lost Star by Snail Quail)

Summary of days 3/4/5&6 of using The Secret

Veronica Pickles